Fanatic Attitudes

I've been listening to Trying To Be Cool By Phoenix featuring R.Kelly. It's a really great song and I'm absolutely in love with it. A really smooth sound and psychedelic vibe. I know what you're thinking. What's the point to all this right? Well there's a line in the song that goes, "Some fanatic attitude,we're both on" and it made me think of life and how sometimes we just aren't fanatic enough about the right things. I've known tons of people my age and even older and younger who just go bonkers for things that normally should make them go...huh? The trend nowadays for my age group is to be fanatic about "Trying To Be Cool". Me? It's hard enough to make myself fanatic enough about my studies and things that benefit me. Fitting in is the least of my worries. Don't get me wrong. Everyone craves acceptance and love from others. I'm guilty of it too. Of seeing a person and going okay..I want them to like me. But sometimes you have to step back and ask yourself if it's really worth getting fanatic about. I mean there's a pretty thin  line between fanatic and well..crazy. So get fanatic about the right things. Make yourself go crazy in love with your new haircut, or that new book you just  picked up. Go wild for that pretty dress you saw in that store and go wild with your friends in it when you hang. Be a fanatic over those good grades or that hobby you've been meaning to pick up for ages. Right now my crazy fix is writing. I'm pouring everything into it because it's worthwhile. Are you being a fanatic right now? Is the thing or even person you're crazy over,  even worth it? Ask yourself that. You'll know what you should to when you can answer yourself. Honestly of course.

The Chase

If you're a teenager like I am, finding out what you want most from life can be pretty damn hard. Some of us know from the get-go that we want to be a lawyer, a doctor, a teacher; and then others (and I confess I'm a part of the latter) have a hard time settling on an actual career or degree to follow.

When I was younger I wanted to be a doctor for the longest time, then reality gave me a hard kick in the ass when I was in High/Secondary school and I was confronted by my mortal enemy...sciences. To say I suck at sciences would be equivalent to saying drugs are bad for you. Anything Maths related makes me cringe and my mind just literally shuts down and I freak. I've always been better with words so when I was about to take my CXCs (a Caribbean exam which enables you to get certification in certain subjects) I decided to try my hand at Business subjects. Easy right? Hated the shit out of it. Although I've never liked the idea of having a boss, I've never really thought about owning my own business and I just found business studies to be boring. That puts me up to 6th form (the last two years of High School basically) where I decided I'd try my hand at Law. I mean I was good with words, I loved debating things and Lawyers make a lot of money. Win win all around. For a while I thought I had finally found what I wanted to do. I loved learning Law at school. My teacher was really great and I understood it,  but then  I realised I didn't want to be a Lawyer. I could not see myself working late hours all day everyday for the rest of my life. I just couldn't.

Then it hit me. What I wanted to do. In 6th form I took up English Literature and it all clicked then. I got a 4 in Literature at CAPE which isn't a fail but it's not nearly the top either and you know what? I still loved it. It hurt so much that I didn't get a 1 but I still loved Literature lol And it made me realise that what I was good at had been staring at me all along. I always was at  the top of the class when it came to Literature and English since I was young. I was able to read before most kids when I was a child and my collection of books was kinda scary for someone my age lol (I say was because all of my books got thrown out some years ago with moving sigh) I always loved writing and I've been writing things since I was a little girl, whether it was stories,poems, my thoughts...I finally had a purpose and something to really strive for and that's when I started to put my all into learning. I intend on graduating with First Class Honors in Literature and that's my goal.

 I guess what my whole post is trying to say, is that it's okay to be lost. Nothing is wrong with you because you just can't figure out what you want to do. Some people know from the start and some people find their way, but find your way you will. That's as long as you keep trying of course. Never stop chasing what you want out of life even if you don't know what that is. Research and ask questions and do whatever you need to do to get shit done. It's going to be hard sometimes believe me, especially when everyone else around you seems like they have it together and you're barely keeping your head above water but never mind that. Keep striving.It'll be worth it in the end. Believe me.

Who Am I?

A couple weeks ago in my creative writing class, my professor asked us (the other students and I) this question: Who Am I?

The basis of the exercise was to come up with a description of yourself to give the others an idea of who you are as an individual. You got the normal answers like "I'm 20 years old" or "I'm a Gemini" along with "I'm a shy person"/ "I'm a talker." After we had all read out our intros she looked at  us again and asked the same question. Obviously we all just sat there. Didn't we just at length read out the facts of our lives? And then I realized. I still didn't know anything about the other students around me. Sure I knew their names and ages and even how many siblings they had. But those are things that could be found in other people.

So that left us with the obvious question, how can you really...truly...define yourself? What is the essence of you? What makes you different to anyone or everyone else for that matter? I could tell you my hopes and dreams; where I lived and who my friends were; what my parents did for a living, but would that tell you who I am? Would that make you able to say "She's unlike anyone else I've ever met."?

So the next time someone asks you, "Who are you?" really sit and think about it. Make sure that you're giving them an answer that makes them sure of who you are and tells them exactly what they need to get the essence of you. Unless you're trying to hide all that, in which case that's a post for another time.

Acronyms

Don't be so enamored with people
Easily swayed, their loyalty is fake
Some are crafty and will trick you
They will come with sweet words and promises,
Readily you will accept
Only, they are lies and you'll regret it
Your hopes-shattered.
Teach yourself to rely on you
Hanging on will only cause you more pain
Ethereal thoughts of love confuse you
Making it hard to survive.
Always remember
Love is not a synonym for life
Life is not guaranteed.

The Writing Process

What inspired you to create this blog?

So here's the lowdown.
I've loved writing for as long as I remember; it's basically the only thing I'm really good at. I've written several stories and poems on other websites but I've never really thought of a writing blog. Recently a good friend of mine decided to create her own blog(the link will be below) and in my effort to support her and to channel  my own curiosity I decided to create this blog. Although this isn't my first blog, this is the first one catering strictly to writing that I've made.Kami's Blog: http://beautifulkween.blogspot.com/

 Why The Writing Process?

If you're a writer yourself or even just a student you'll probably be familiar with this term. The writing process simply refers to all the things that go into making a piece of literature or writing, such as drafts,brainstorming,peer editing/reviews and basically just editing in general. I'm not quite sure that I've developed my very own unique style as yet. Right now I play around with different genres and different ways of writing. I decided to call this blog The Writing Process simply for that reason. This blog is my rough draft to finding my own style and voice in writing and hopefully when I've grown tired of it or decide to create a new one I can say yeah, this is who I am.

What can I expect from your blog?

The great thing about writing is that there's no right or wrong way to do it. Obviously some ways are more popular or even more effective but still. No right or wrong way. In my blog I'll post anything I feel; poems,short stories,excerpts of conversations,rants,thoughts,even reviews... basically whatever I feel is necessary to show you guys or maybe just to offload once in a while,but it will all be in writing. Of course I do have other interests and this is a personal blog so you will see other posts like pictures of my day, music I'm listening to,fashion wants and stuff like that but I'll try my best to keep it to a minimum.

What would you like to say?

I'd love for people to like this blog and find something in it that makes them happy but at the end of the day this is a blog created for my own pleasure. If you love it well that's great, if you don't that's okay too. Being a writer means appealing to an audience but it also means being aware that not everyone will like or understand what you're trying to do and accomplish. That being said, half the fun is trying to convince someone to see your point and even if they never get on board they'll say yeah okay that's something to think about. I hope I give you something to think about.